I didn't say anything about missing him, or hurting, or for that matter, I didn't even put in the mandatory "I hope you are doing well..." (cuz really, who am I kidding, I hope he is doing crappy). Man, I really didn't even think to wish him well! See, growth!
I did however alert him to an upcoming concert that I think he would enjoy. Katie thinks that he will construe this as an invitation. If he does, he is more delusional than I was a month ago. And that's some serious delusion, my friends. But I had to stick the concert thing in there - I saw the notice just as I sat down at my computer and its what really pushed me into finally emailing (was it a sign?). Am I delusional in thinking that its not out of the question that we could go together as friends?
I will answer that question for myself. Yes. That is totally delusional. Besides, I will have a kick ass new boyfriend by then who will not only love me, but support me! And I can go with him. Or with one of my fake boyfriends (more on my fake boyfriends to come in future blogs). Or, even with a girlfriend (not as much fun though. Even the fake boyfriends will usually buy me beer).
Reason #3 that BB was wrong for me: He didn't like animals. Yeah, no kidding! Seriously, who doesn't like animals? Its like saying you don't like pizza. Or ice cream. (BTW - during my life, I have gone through stages where I didn't like pizza or ice cream, but mostly cuz I was young and picky and didn't like tomatoes and am lactose intolerant. But we aren't talking about me here. Focus, people.) He would look at my two, possibly neurotic cats, shake his head and wonder aloud why people bother. I don't think he once even patted either one on the head. He did feed them once, but mostly because they were meowing at them and he wanted them to stop.
He hasn't emailed me back yet. And honestly, I think I'm ok if he doesn't.