I lined up an evening with BB to reward myself for having to deal with all that crap and/or as a shoulder to cry on should I need it. Luckily, I didn't need shoulder to cry on so we went to dinner at a renown hole in the wall Italian restaurant. Wood paneling, tables and chairs that came straight out of a highway diner, crusty old Italians everywhere... Oh, and the worst background music I have heard in a really, really long time. Adult easy listening, circa 1993. Yuck! But, the food was homemade and reasonably priced (not that it mattered because I made him pay).
BB and I have now been doing the "not-dating" gig for almost four months - way longer than we did the actual dating thing. I wonder if this has occurred to him? It may have, because we talked about stuff a little bit last night. Why does he always feel the need to talk when I least feel like talking? Dude, hit me on a day that I didn't spend dealing with my dad and you might get more out of me. We talked about the same bull we always do... He's leaving, he's worried that I'm losing out on dating other people and putting my life on hold, yadda, yadda, yadda. All very good worries and nothing we hadn't talked about before.
But what I've never heard him say before is "I don't want to be in a long-distance relationship." But he said it last night. Yeah, no duh. I don't really want to be in a long-distance relationship either. We've never ever talked about it being an option. Ever. We're not even in a close-distance relationship, why would a long-distance one even be an option?
But, you know how someone says something and it doesn't really sink in until later? Well, this is one of those times. The fact that he said anything about it makes me think he's given thought to it. Which surprises the crap out of me. He's contemplated it as an option. A bad one, but an option nonetheless. I mean, I fully expect that when he moves, we will remain friends and keep in touch. And that we may see each other occasionally on our travels, but I can't imagine it being anything else. But maybe he is imagining something else...