It turns my stomach writing that down. It doesn't seem real.
I asked him not to contact me and I've deleted him from my phone. I know the only way I will be able to shake him is to cut myself off. And to cut him off from me.
Much more later. I just need to get used to the idea that I'm not not-dating anymore. That I'm not quasi-single. I am totally, 100% single and alone again. Still struggling with how I feel about that.