Now, as I'm trying to emerge from my BB haze, I have found a pile of shit on my desk six inches high. Unpaid bills. Undone homework. Random things that hook my computer to other things. Coffee cups. Beer glasses. Apples that are no longer edible. Old Navy coupons that expired in September. And more shit too embarrassing to admit to. So, I began digging out...
Although I rarely, if ever, use it for anything practical, I enter all my expenses into Quicken. I think that someday, I will go back into it an analyze where all my money goes (hint: beer, wine and kayaking equipment.) I actually have a category for "frivolous crap". Also, I have a category for beer and wine. You don't even want to see what that looks like monthly. Particularly after I discovered Costco's no-membership-required liquor store.
The problem with going over your bank statements three months after you have made purchases? Yeah. Its full of memories of purchases you've made with people who are no longer a part of your life. December featured dinners at the pub, my guitar hero guitar, playstation games, sunday breakfasts... January is no different; except the dinners were more expensive. It stops in February; and next month, there will be no BB related purchases - unless you count the trips to Costco's liquor store, the spa and the mall as BB related (p.s: they were).
It stung more the first time this happened with BB. Almost exactly a year ago, I remember sitting here with the bank statements, bawling my eyes out. Particularly as I entered the last dinner we had together - the one I purchased hours before we broke up. I still occasionally scroll up and stare at that entry. Incredulously.
Next time, I'm leaving the bank statements on the desk until I am truly ready to face them.