Thursday, September 3, 2009

Gray's Anatomy Lesson

I really thought that there would be a time when I could watch a doctor show and not get this weird vaguely sad feeling in the pit of my stomach.

That time hasn't quite come.

I actually got to sit and watch a Grey's Anatomy re-run tonight. Course, it was new to me because I ditched my TiVo and haven't been home on a thursday night since February (well, if I was home, I was doing other things, and if I wasn't doing anything productive, football was on. For the express purpose of reminding me why television blows).

Watching those skinny little actors run around in their scrubs and have their little life/hospital issues still brings back memories for me of how difficult it was to be on the other end of a relationship with a resident. And watching it still makes me just a little sad. Its been over six months; yet those sad feelings still came back -- even though I did everything I was supposed to do to shake them.

Don't freak out. I'm not pining away for him. Or talking to him. Or thinking about him (unless I'm watching tv, of course). It just strikes me as a bit weird that he can still interfere with a good night of mindless tv.

3 comments:

Ms Behaviour said...

I can't stand that show. All the men are good looking and narcissistic and all the women are gorgeous and skinny and whiny. Ugh, kill me now. I'd rather watch football.

erin said...

Stuff like BB takes time to heal. Of course you're not pining away for him, but that old wound probably needs some more time to completely close up. I've been thinking a lot lately about how (in the past) I have placed unrealistic demands on myself to FEEL BETTER NOW, I'M FINE. And it just doesn't work that way.

Funny, I was watching part of a Grey's re-run last night to kill a little time before going out. I concluded that I need to stop watching that show altogether because it makes me sad. (In general. It's damn depressing.)

kristen said...

what was it about last night? I watched part of grey's last night also... first time all summer...