Wednesday, September 16, 2009

No. 4

Life has a funny way of helping you see clearly every once in a while.

I got a birthday email from BB. A week late. It said something to the effect of "Realized I missed your birthday. Sorry I missed a chance to point out that you are older than me again." To which I replied "Amazing how you turned your mistake into a zing on me. I know what you really meant though, and I accept your apology and well-wishes." He sent me a response telling me about his new job. I looked him up at the new hospital and google mapped his new office.

He looks like shit, and no wonder, because his new office is in the middle of a god-forsaken stretch of highway with not a tree, or shrub, or happy thought anywhere nearby. Thank you, google street view, for that priceless opportunity to stalk. And gloat.

So, he's in my mind again. And I think about what life might have been like had we stayed together (crap) and what had gone down last year and the whole thing. Its been a while since I've wasted much thought on him. Seeing his hospital mug shot though, brought it all back up.
Then I felt guilty for having even responded. And for having him in my mind.

So, the next day, I am sitting innocently at my desk at work shuffling paper from one side of the desk to the other, which seems to be what I do best, when I hear an unfamiliar voice ask where my office is. I think "Shit. Its lunchtime, man! What does this lady want from me? I don't have time for this (these piles don't move themselves!)"

And into my office walks a pudgy woman with a bad perm and mom jeans. With flowers in her hand.

Flowers for me. From Prof. For our 4-monthiversary.

I was speechless. No, really. I was. I had no words. Then the first words I spoke were "holy fuck." And by that, I meant "I am very lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend". It just came out wrong. I've never gotten flowers at work before - I didn't know how to act. The card simply said "Happy 4-Months". The co-workers were simply jealous.

I suspect that it is quite rare to have an email from an ex followed up so closely by flowers from the current. It really gave me a chance to reflect on the really good thing I have now, and how very different and shitty things were last year at this time. It almost made me cry.

Wonder what he's going to get me for our 5-month?


Ms Behaviour said...

I can see clearly now the rain is gone... It's gonna be a bright, sunshiny day :)

Branden and Kristi said...

Flowers for 4 months is just waaaaay too nice...It seems to me like he just really wanted a reason to let you know how much he likes you!!

Forget that non-veggie eating workaholic back west. He's old news. Besides, after you shaved his back hair for the 10th time you'd realize how much he sucks. (Sorry, too harsh??) Then we'd read posts about how much you really miss the Prof. :)

Unknown said...

I'm sorry... I seem to have come across the wrong blog. I was looking for love CYNICISM... Where's the GD cynicism!?!? :)

Congratulations on 4 months and I imagine 5 is just around the corner. It's wonderful to see you happy in a relationship (as opposed to happy being single, which certainly has its own benefits!!).