And then it reminded me that the last time I was in Mexico, ten months ago, I was caught up in BB drama and doing my best to get him out of my system. (Do I call him ever again? Do I pay him for those last concert tickets? Will there be closure? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.)
And then I got mad because I'm starting to associate the entirety of the great country of Mexico with BB drama, and that's just not fair to my good Mexican hosts.
Its wouldn't even really be worth mentioning at all, except for this tiny little fact...
That fucker called me today.
Hello? I never responded to his text message - wouldn't that be a hint that I wasn't in to talking to him? Apparently not. So, thank god I didn't hear my phone vibrating in my work bag. His message went like this "Hey Susan. Its BB. Just checking in. I'm going to be on the east coast next month. I didn't know if we were talking yet."
Breezy, easy. "Just checking in." Really? People check in when they are dating. Not when they haven't spoken in almost a year. And, uh, the fact that we haven't spoken in a year should be a pretty clear indication that we aren't talking. I'm honestly blown away at his persistence and audacity (and arrogance?). The fact that he is coming in for an east coast visit makes me believe that he would like to get together and catch up on old times; like the time he dissed me on Valentine's Day. Good times - I will always remember them fondly.
The problem is, with a text, then a phone call, I feel like I have been put in a place where I am required to respond in some manner. I don't like feeling like that. He's put me on the spot. Do I email him - let him know I'm ok, but that I'm going to have to pass on the great BB reunion? Or, do I not respond and risk more and more attempts at contact? I've moved on (and traded way up, by the way). Why can't he?
I'm going to sleep on it. I doubt that it will help me figure it out, but at least I'll get to be in my big comfy bed.