Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year, Old Resolutions

So, here's when I'm supposed to make a list of all the ways I'm going to change this year and transform myself into this perfect person - the model of civility, class, couth, organization and financial well-being. But, here's the thing: if I want to do something badly enough, I'm not going to wait until January, put it on some list, and overwhelm myself with changing a dozen things about my life all at one time. It just sets you up for failure. Besides, I'm pretty damn near close to perfect now.

(Well, at least Prof says so. Sometimes.)

My resolutions have stayed pretty much the same since my mid-twenties. They go something like this: This year I'm going to meet with a financial planner and start a Roth IRA; I'm going to get organized; I'm not going to let my house get out of control; I'm going to be nicer to people; I'm going to eat more veggies (how I can be a vegetarian and not get the daily recommended dose of vegetables continues to befuddle me); I'm going to drink less; I'm going to lose those stubborn 10 pounds...

In fact, my resolutions have been pretty much the same since middle school. I was reading through my 7th grade journal again last night and found this:

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My New Year's resolutions are:

1. Eat healthier, because I'm going to have problems if I keep going like I am
2. Be more organized, which is an impossible dream
3. Be nice to my brother, another impossible feat
4. Be more concerned with my appearance
5. Be more active (I'm seriously lazy)
6. Take more care with school and schoolwork
7. Get more money
8. Be neater (I'm a slob. You should see my room)

I will probably never succeed in the things listed above, but its something to hope for (kind of)!

Even at twelve years old, I recognized the futility of trying to be organized and nice. And, with the exception of the inclusion of an alcohol reduction program in the more recent years, the lists are virtually unchanged. OK so, in 7th grade I just wanted "more money" and now I want to increase my yield and limit future tax liabilities, but basically, we are talking about the same list.

And so, this year, I resolve to not resolve. To do what feels good when it feels right and to limit expectations that will later make me feel like I've left something unaccomplished. But seriously, I should meet with a financial planner... And lose those 10 pounds.

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